Maniacs is one of Charbel Baini's books translated from Arabic into English with introduction by Dr. Mostapha Helwe

Me and My Father

 

Festival in Support of the Families of Lebanese Army Martyrs 9/19/2014

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I saw you in my dream, carrying my likeness

Kneeling in prayer... your eyes on me

And in a despairing, extinguished, 

And hoarse voice

I asked you: What do you want... 

Tell me, Father?

You whispered to me: 

Why is the homeland wounded

And its ancient cedars bowed down?

Why does the hero end up slaughtered?

The army of the nation is a divine blessing

I fear, my son, that the country will be lost

And vanish behind a mirage of dust

Write me a poem that will bring down 

The highest edifices

Built on sandy shores

Lebanon is my home... not Noah's Ark

Gathered people... to betray me

Tell them: 

I don't want a single mother to mourn

For her children... in a political game

I always see the grave open

Heroes sacrificing their lives for the homeland

To bring back the heavenly smile.

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Stop, my father... Your demand is a volcano

And your son is a stranger 

In the darkness of abandonment

And how can I fulfil it... 

And life will end... Or ended long ago

I wrote poetry... Poetry was useless

Not a single word could defeat the devil

We have a leadership wrapped in depravity

And we have a people drunk on their love

Living their years in tears and oppression

And despite the torment... 

He's happy living without a president... 

And the palace is in ruins

And the parliament is corrupt and broken

And our soldiers are being slaughtered

And not a single eyelid flinched

The blood of heroes has become worthless

And heads are being sold in shops

They suffocated a nation that wanted 

To keep up with the times

No electricity, no water for the thirsty

And sectarianism is eating them up

They forgot the meaning of religion and faith

The house of worship 

Is distributing blasphemy

And killing man with man

And we, my father, here we became the pride

And the universes learned in our ranks

We ruled the world... 

They showered us with flowers

And in our land, the neighbours are fighting

I'll say it from the rooftop... Let it roar

Lebanon needs men, not eunuchs

The thickest moustache has no hair left

I wish... for once... 

A woman would rule you.

I couldn't declare victory over the leadership

Living alone... in my exile, despairing

Like you and me... our people are in exile

And those who remain... 

Oppressed or destitute

In "Rockwood," my father, 

There's a grave for me next to you

I wished it was in the homeland

My grave... O Mejdlaya, be patient

Sydney is my life... 

And the paradise of countries

I won't betray it... nor stab it in the back

Blood flows cheaply for it

Two lines of poetry I engraved in my heart:

If we don't have an army to protect the land

And behind it the people... 

Lengthwise or width wise

I will keep crying for the homeland, Lebanon

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